If that wasn’t enough to get the Buffy song stuck in your head, here’s a gif
I’m feeling Spike; enough, I’m done.
Okay, let’s backtrack a little so you have some background. I’ve been writing since 2001, beginning with fanfic (stories set in a television/movie universe) and then branching out into original. I’ve had some success, with several novellas published and even a couple of awards. Writing has been my major focus since my first book was published in 2011. That’s seven years.
So to go for three weeks without writing… well, it’s not unheard of – I’ve had dry spells before – but this feels different. As in I-don’t-even-want-to-write-fanfic different. As in I’m not feeling guilty for not writing. Nothing is sparking my imagination. Not reading, not watching TV, not trawling Tumblr for my favourite ‘ships.
Am I depressed? I don’t think so, though it can be hard to tell. But I am embracing other creative outlets, especially crochet, where the ideas are coming thick and fast, so I don’t think so. Which leads me back to the question of why I’ve absolutely no desire to be writing stories.
Maybe I’m just done writing? Can I be done writing?
Maybe. Maybe I need a longer break. For the moment, I’m grabbing hold of this tweet from Ann Aquirre:
Some controversial advice: If writing becomes a vampire demon sucking the blood & life out of you?
It’s OK to take a break or even quit.
I give you permission to say, “This no longer makes me happy.”
Here’s a secret. You can start again later. Take care of yourself first.
— Ann Aguirre (@MsAnnAguirre) February 10, 2018